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agape..

hommmeeeee

yep.. i am home! at last.. got some pics of the sunrise we took at teluk chempedak later.. and also the posting bout our last night in Kuantan of which i spent with my best friends in matriculation..=)

p/s need ta go for dinner.. =X

apape..

Its over

finally i've finished my final paper.. looking forward to home now.. be back for good on Sunday..

can finally heave a sigh of relief.. sleep without having to worry bout facts.. worry bout whether i have worked hard enuff.. even today itself i was having bad flu last nite.. took a pill and slept early.. then woke up 4am in the morning to complete my studies.. and thank God i did.. coz i managed to cover everything.. =)..

really looking forward to KL and the things i am gonna do back there.. =D


agape..

Crazynesssssssss

past 2 days were really crazy.. a roller coaster ride with ups and downs..

slept for 2 hrs out of 48.. for the last 2 days... when i wanted to just sleep, i would roll around.. my head would be heavy.. symptoms of tension i believe.. because of that, after yesterday which in my last post, i stated would be my worst exam day, i slept for 10 hrs that night.. really nice sleep haha.. =) really tiring though.. to go into the exam hall tired and wish i could get more sleep.. nearly fell asleep during my maths paper 2 =P.. had to go wash my face..

for the last 2 days, i personally think that i made it through maths... as in i think it was sufficient to earn me what i wanted.. but for physics. oh my goodness.. it was terrible.. part of my insomnia was due to my physics paper which kinda traumatised me.. looking back at the paper i wish there were things i could have changed.. perhaps question choice and answers.. even though i cannot make anymore changes but sometimes these things tend to haunt u.. and its doing so to me right now.. its one of those cases where u slap ureself on the head after u knew u had made a mistake instantly after u handed ure paper.. and in my case.. it was not a mistake.. it was quite a lot of mistakes.. =(...but undeniably the paper was tough.. according to everybody in the physics stream.. the students in bio got a freakishly easy paper though.. it ain't fair.. =(

looking back at the effort i put in for this exams.. i kinda put in more than what i did in sem 1.. especially for the physics paper.. i ran through the whole thing twice. and spent a lot of time on doing the exercises etc etc.. but somehow i seemed to do much worse compared to my previous sem.. i don't know.. really.. i have prayed before i did the paper.. 5 mins before i started i laid my hands on the paper, putting it in God's hands and well.. i gave my all during the paper and i personally hope that God will miraculously give me wat i deserve now.. =).. though the aftermath its really kinda frustrating and i get fidgety when i think bout it now.. i pray that God will give me peace.. and strength to finish of the 2 days i have left..

part of these feelings come from the pressure of not gettin the course of my choice if i don get that perfect cgpa of 4.0.. which requires an A for all 3 core subjects.. i applied for pharmacy in USM in Penang..and that definitely requires a 4.0 cgpa.. i got that 4.0 for sem 1.. and now i have to get it again.. arrrghhh.. and looking at that situation and experience i had yesterday.. i don't know whether that is possible now.. but when i was messaging David yesterday.. he said something that actually summarized the whole thing up.. bout how i should feel bout this whole thing... He said :

" God has willed for all of these to happen.. its included in His plan.. so whether u get that 4.0 or not, He will still ensure that u get the course that He wants u to do.. according to His plan.. if by not getting the perfect score ensures that u walk in His plan, then so be it.. "

Kinda true isn't it.. i don't need to really care bout what happens after this.. watever i have done is done and now is in God's hands.. He will point my direction for me.. and if it means failing me to get my attention then so be it. =)

p.s my definition of fail means not getting an A.. (LOL)..because i have no other option.. hehe.

through this all i prayed and still is praying that watever i get brings glory to God.. because all this is for Him..

countdown : 4 days to home
2 days till exam ends


agape..

opening ceremony

yeps.. i've just started my finals for 2nd sem.. jus finished english paper which i don really care about.. cause it doesn't affect my CGPA.. (cummulative grade point average)

i don know what to say.. i've studied my utmost best and i fear that the questions may be like super tough.. cos to be honest, i havent really covered everything in the syllabus.. tomo is gonna be the worst exam day because of physics 2 and maths 2 on the same day.. which is very taxing.. coz.. both require a lot of study.. thank God i nearly finished my physics already but for maths.. oh my goodness.. paper 2 content, i have like 2 more chapters to cover and also lots of practice to do.. so i don't know how i am gonna manage my time tonight.. =(.. a bit worried on which subject i am gonna focus on..

wednesday is a holiday.. not really a holiday though..its just that Melaka has a public hol on that day so practically we have to take a break too. coz this exam is standardized around the matriculation colleges in the whole of Malaysia.. =)

But seriously after tomo i will be more relaxed.. coz the final day(friday) is gona be chem.. and for that suject i have adi revised most of it.. what is left is just the front part.. =)

After friday i am gonna stay over for one more night becoz i have a uni entry test i have to.. sort of a personality test to see whether i am suited for the course of my choice.. that will be on Saturday.. after the test during noon, i will be going to Kuantan for the night with my gang of frens here.. we are going to the beach for one final gathering.. then on Sunday i will take a bus back to KL.. and thats when i will be back for good. =).. really really looking forward to that.. i can't really remember when was the last time i could just sit back and relax and don need to think about my studies.. lol..

On the other hand, i got the offer to become a facilitator for the orientation week for the new students of 2009/2010.. pretty cool considering the fact that i still remember my orientation week.. really fresh too in my memory.. only 5 chinese got chosen out of 15+ applications and 3 were from the student council.. so that must be God wanting me to leave something in my chinese juniors..
p.s not being racist here.. its just that the chinese facis will be the one taking after the Chinese students most of the time.. so yea.. =)

and on the bright side i will get a chance to come back to this coll for a while to see the next batch of youngsters who are gonna experience what i went through last year.. homesickness la.. tiredness la.. etc etc.. but that will be from 6th may till 16th may..

and YAY i will be going to Pulau Redang in at the end of June with some of my friends.. 20 -30 of them.. june 23-25.. it will be my first time to Redang and i hope it will be a blast.. =D

thats all for now.. wish me all the best..it will be super pressurizing these few days.. but i believe that God will give me strength and wisdom to persevere the remaining 4 days.. =)

Oh.. before i forget.. i heard that the production for Easter back in KL was awesome.. if any of u guys have the CD.. i wan pinjam k? =)

and also just wanna take this opportunity to wish u guys a belated blessed easter..

Thank U Lord for the change U brought to this earth 2000+yrs ago.. when u gave the only son that U had.. for us..that we will have a hope.. and a second chance..


agape..

post # 100

a bit of blog history

i started this blog not long after i first stepped here in Pahang.. now i am two weeks from leaving this place and at post no.100.. meaningful huh.. at least to me.. since i have actually posted 100 posts here.. =)

when i was writing this post, memories flashed back on how it all started, orientation week, the barbeque at the beachside.. moments with my beloved Daddy in heaven, all those posts that made my blog what is it today...

no i don't have a thank u list.. haha.. cause i only have one person in mind to thank, and in fact, He is not even a person, He is God... everything that i have been through, He planned it for me, everything that i am going to achieve, He will lay out one by one... my future, my plans, all in His hands.. =).. i am who i am because of His perfect plan..

heard a lot about my friends back in KL.. =P.. seems like i missed a lot of things happening, for example, Michael, my buddy in church, black.. =P.. got into a band with my other friends in KL, all from the same church, they are called A Mile Away, and trust me this bunch of people are good.. I've seen them grow in the music ministry and their talent is amazing.. advertising for them pulak.. =S.. but yeah.. they are one good bunch =D.. hope u guys have a blast together making music and also learn something through this process.. =).. when u get famous don't forget me.. =P

p.s1 i heard bout the band thing from IR night which i also accidently stepped across through someone's blog..

kinda not been to classes this week coz its the last week of class and the lecturers are just plainly doing revision which i rather do myself in the room.. =).. my routine is kinda messed up nowadays, sleeping at 4-5am getting up at noon.. haha.. but yeah.. it seems to do me better, so i will still continue it.. hope i have time to complete studying everything.. so much memory work this time compared to sem 1 where it was all bout calculation and less theory..

p.s 2 memory power is my weakness, sometimes i forget things that i have done 10 mins ago.. =0

people ask me how do i cope with this life that is so stressful and there is even hardly time to breathe especially during the exam period, coz its a lot to learn and study given such a short period of time.. but what keeps me really going is that :

I AM DOING THIS FOR GOD!!

Thats what matters, for His glory and His alone..



agape..

Happy April Fool!

lol... hope u guys don't get fooled =P




agape..